gemgems

I need to get some things off my chest. My life is well a bit mad at the moment. I am so busy being a full time mum of two children and working that i feel very unapreciated. Last night I really felt very bad and ended up eating a whole packet of biscuits. I know that emotional eating is not a good idea but i felt so lonely and sad in my heart. Mt husband is not being very supportive as he has so many problems of his own he has no time to be able to care for mine. I feel like the whole world is on top of my shoulders and i am finally being crushed. Eating the biscuits made me feel good for a few minuets but then i felt so guilty. I didn’t loose as much weight as i have been doing. I put on 2lbs during the week and then finaly on my weigh in day i had lost 1lb,. the 2lb just disapeared!!” anyway i feel useless and uninspired, it’s only three weeks into the diet surly i shouldn’t be feel;ing like this!!!!

Gems x x

I have been sticking to my diet very well, yes i have had the odd chockie bar but have been very careful on calorie intake and exercise. I have been working extra hard this past week putting in 10 plus hour days typing which apparently burns over 100 cals an hour so where am i going worng? I am eating less and burning more but yet i weighed myself yesterday morning and i had put on 2 lbs!!!! I felt so deflated i ended up eating a whole bag of licorice i’m surprised i haven’t been sat on the loo dying!!!! Anyway does anyone have any ideas???? I’m stuck!!!

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hey all, been so so buzy over the last three days, i finally got a job!!!!!! not “THE” job but a job to say the least, it pays peanuts but its better than nothing!! I’ve been typing pretty much none stop for three days and my bum has never been so numb!!!! I’m starting to save up to pay back my Gpa which is a relief and I decided to weigh myself early this morning and to my surprise i’ve lost another 3lbs!!! YIPPEEEEE!!!

I’m almost back to my pre Christmas weight which is a relief, my clothes are fitting better and I am excited to see how much I can loose by nxt Monday. Nxt Monday is a bit of a dee day for me as I bought this suit and at the time it fit snuggly (pre-Chritmas) and i decided to loose a few pouns so it fit better. So by my recconing I should be able to reach my goal!!!! I’m totally over the moon and haven’t felt this good in a long time!!!

I’ve been quite naughty to day having nearly 500 cals more than my avarage day and two glasses of vodka and diet coke (I hardly ever drink u see!!) But it was a celibration , i deserve it!!

Bye for now!!! xxxx

Gems xxxxx

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Well, today has been a long day…………It seemed to last forever!!!!! At first the day started well and I have had no food blips either, but a creeping headache has swept up on me and has put me in bed for fear of it turning into a migrane at 6:30pm. I hardly never get migraines so I am at wonder what has brought it on? I’m not overly stressed today nor have I eaten too little/much. So who knows.

Bring on tomorrow……..night night x

A new week is upon us already!! I did my weigh in this morning and I hopped up and down with joy, I’ve lost 4 lbs!!!!! Yippeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My first week has been a success!!!!!! Even with the night off, I’ve done fantastically well.

I’m so proud of myself and my will power. Let’s hope this week will be better!!!!!!!

Today has been easier than last monday. I’m still havin problems with that elusive job but I hold hope

Just me about to rant some here………. I just lost out on 2 jobs I applied for, even when one of them has constantly bugged me all day with questions and ideas, I believed I had got the job…errrrrrr, NO apparently not, just another man taking me for granted and then leaving when I’ve done everything for them!!!!!! I WANT TO SCREAM!!!!!!!! I hate being so good natured sometimes, people see it as a weakness to *@!t all over you from a great hight.

I feel so deflated and, well used to be honest. I’m fighting with myself now, I want chocolate and diet coke. These are my comfort foods. But NO I’m being strong the only thing that is keeping me going is the fact I want to be slim again and that desire is stronger than the deflation. I need to try and stay positive………

You know when you have a big fish, I mean that one thing you want more than anything else? Well there is one job I applied for I want more than the rest, it’s my big fish. The service provider hasn’t been decided yet so I’m still in with a chance. Maybe this job i lost wasn’t ment to be as the big fish is?????………………. Who knows? Just trying to keep my chin up.

Gemsxxxxx

Today is a lazy day, I’m checking the internet for jobs and I’m still sat in my PJ’s. My husband had me up till 3am!!!! We ended up watching Prison Break catch ups and I did eat a chockie bar!! Never mind it was just the one and I deserve it after the week I’ve had!! I still had to get up at 7am for my son (Caleb, 18months), so ~I’m a bit of a walking zombie today!! Also it’s still my job to dao all of the cooking and cleaning, I’m making Beef Stew tonight, the one that is advertized by Sainsbury’s - All of you English women will know what I am talking about!!

This week has been Aghhh!!! Between finding out my solicitor is retiring, looking for work, money being tight after Xmas and bills comming out of my ears it’s been a tough one. But over all the diet is going well, I feel less bloated, my clothes feel alittle less tight and my period seems to be at it’s end finally!!! 12 day periods are a pain in the…….. well I think you know what I mean!!!!!!

It’s weigh in time tomorrow morning and I’m so sure I’ve lost some of those esential pounds!!! Ahh I’m nervous!!!!!

I have good postive hopes for the comming week and I am learning to relax a bit more and take everything in my stride. Good luck to everyone for next week and don’t dwell on the week passed!!!!! Gems xxxxxxxx

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Today has been lovely! I got a lye in, my god that rarely happens!! I took my daughter to Ballett and had a walk around the shops.

I’m stricking to the water thing - 2 days now!! I still miss diet coke terribly but I’m sure I’ll get over it!!! No chocolate today but there again no stress, although I do wish my period would end!! I’ts been going on for 11 days now!! What a joke!!

I should def loose a few pounds after that stops, that with my diet this week and the exercise I have done, I think I may have lost a few pounds!! I have to admit my stomache is looking less bloated and people are commenting on the change in my demenour. I seem less stressed and happier.

The husband and I are going to have some time to ourselves tonight!!! hehehehe!!! so some extra exercise, well achieved I think!!!!

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Its been alot easier today, although I have to admitt that tonight i’m really feeling the temptation!! The crisps are calling!!! But I am being strong and will NOT give into temptation.

On a good side today I fitted into my pre-Christmas jeans again!!! WHOOOOO!! So the only way is, well, SMALLER!!!

I also started to drink water today and not my usual diet pepsi/coke, let’s see how it goes!!

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It’s been a tough day today My son woke me up at 5am, so I have been very tired all day! I had an argument with my bank manager over a missed payment, hey it was Christmas! I said i’d make it up this month but you know what they are like. I missed my Positive affirmation card mantra today, but I will be starting again tomorrow as tomorrow is a new day, I won’t let it affect my week!!! I di delve straight into the chocolate because of the stress not good! But I did stop at 5 peices and I’ve just had another 6 peices to sooth me. Other than that it’s not really been that bad. I did end up doing some extra walking to town and back to make up for the chocolate so all in all I’ve not done that bad. I’m going to have an extra early night to make up the lost sleep!!!!! See you tomorrow!!! Night all!!!

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